And there's a reason that I told you to set your mind on things above
And there's a reason that I told you to set your eyes on Me

For nothing in this life will ever truly satisfy.
...Or the desires of your heart
           -Justin Rizzo's song.

hmmmm as i listen to this song it just speaks so much truth. that there really is a reason why He tells us to set our minds on things above and to keep gazing at Him. Justin really wants us to know that we are very frail people and no matter how confident we are of our intellectual independency - we are all but chasing after dust.

Nothing satisfies a person more than being deeply in love with Jesus. Hands down.

Oh how I want to live in that Truth forever and grow deeper in that reality.

God's doing new things again.

HAHAHAHAH. And it totally involves new things that realllyyyy challenge me. New wine skins anyone? HHAHA it's almost hilarious. I'm still really freaked out but I'm actually excited about this.

And I've never been excited about this.

Alright! I'm on-board! Took me four years to get here - my Frosh Sixth Bible study leaders (heather, ozeki, andrew) would be proud of me.



Yup that's me. and sorry for being very very vague - but it's very sensitive information. I would love to share it with you if you ask .

ARGH. I've spent like 8 hours on car shopping online and seriously there's nothing similar to Anna :(. They are all inferior with specs and looks - I seriously am feeling jipped. And they all cost more than how much I paid! Well, as an update: my car was officially totaled even before the dude could turn on the car (which it didnt). Just by him looking at the damages, Anna was a goner.

This whole car shopping process sucks a lot. I was so over car shopping 4 months ago, and to think I have to do this again really irks me. I am so sick of dealing with dealers and fitting a big chunk of time in my schedule to go get the car.

I'm most likely going to get the same car but newer with a smaller engine. I got to save my spoiler and my bluetooth/USB reading after-market stuff - so I'll put that on when I get my car.

Anna was feisty and super high-maintenance for three months, but I just wish she came back to me. She's probably now getting super wet somewhere near San Ysidro (next to the Mexican border), waiting to be salvaged. And here I am trying to find her replacement.

Here are the last pictures I have of her:


hah it looks like one of those o_O faces. DAH!




man. look at that sadness.


DAH the back bumper and everything looks terrible. TERRIBLE.


it makes me sad just looking at her.


inside airbag mess.


red sticker of death.


this is the car lot I found her in. Look at those sad cars and mine just sitting there...on the side.

Here's what she looked like...when she was happy.


Man. I'm done mourning. I may need inner healing later in life. I'll try and move on when I get myself another car...this week. And for those who decide to comment on this entry - don't laugh in the comment field (yes Eric Fan Shi - yes, specifically you. you were in the car with me! she saved us both from injuries) or mention how lame this entry is. You'll understand one day when your precious car that you took good care of gets totaled unexpectedly from someone else. Oh and I totally am not bitter. . Really.

My real treasures are however in Heaven. I just treasured this materialistic love of mine. Maybe God is showing me my little idols of mine.

RIP Anna: 08/30/09-01/08/10.

Way to end an entry, Andy.